Today I cried! I think it’s the first day I actually got upset about the move and, as crazy as it sounds, I’m still thrilled that we’re back in MO. It’s just thinking about leaving everything behind that we worked so hard to accomplish. I know none of this makes sense because I’m not upset about anything – well, I am upset about leaving Cat.
I need to stop looking at that picture! She wanted so badly to be friends with me but she just couldn’t allow herself to trust a human.
The people buying the house came out this morning and went over everything with Vince – how to change door and gate codes, how to work the automatic chicken coop doors, how to read the solar panel . . whatever you call it – the thing that tells you what each panel is doing.
They road the bluebird trail. Vince said this is the first year ever that we don’t have a single bluebird nest. It probably has something to do with the winter/hard freeze. I hope the bluebirds come back!
The lady is really excited about having Cat, though she hasn’t seen her. I do have the lady’s email address so I sent her the picture.
It’s kinda sad for me that I never met the people buying the house. The last three or our houses we sold, I didn’t meet the people but I guess because of our relationship with Jeremy and Angie, I kinda felt like I should have met these people. And, we hadn’t put so much blood, sweat and tears into the other houses. This one has part of US let behind, plus old Speck is buried there.
Then, just now I was talking to Vince. I had asked him to show the people where Speck is buried so they don’t disturb that area . . or at least I’ll think they won’t disturb it. Vince told me he explained how much I had loved Speck and how he lived to be 16 and he’s buried “there”. We had a big rock that looks like a tombstone so we had put it there. Vince told me the lady asked what his name was and Vince told her and she said they were going to engrave his name on the rock. OK . . I should just go to bed now because I’m crying again.
Vince ended up calling the title company and he’s going to go in and sign the papers early so he’ll get a good, early start and he could make it in one day so maybe my countdown numbers were right . . accidentally.
This move has gone on way too long but it was kinda this way when we left MO or Texas. Vince started working 2 weeks in Texas, then back to MO for a week probably the first of February, then started full time in Texas on May 1 and I didn’t move til mid-August. Chad was graduating from college, then having his tonils out a few days after graduation, then the tornado and all elective surgery got cancelled so we couldn’t get that scheduled til the end of July.
We’ve had some crazy moves. When we left Kentucky, the packers came a few days before Christmas so we were living out of suit cases, eating Christmas dinner on paper plates. They loaded our stuff on December 26 so Vince, Chad and I started driving that evening and only drove a couple of hours – spent the night in Paducah, KY because I had to be at the AQS office the next morning, then we drove to Springfield, MO and spent a couple of nights there. We still had a few days before we could get in the house we bought in MO so we ended up spending more nights in a hotel in Nevada, MO . . in a hotel that had a sign in the bathroom that said “Please do not clean wild game in the sink”. That should tell you all you need to know about that place! 🙂
This is our last move and that makes me happy. There may come a time when we downsize and go to a smaller house but it won’t be a 10 – 15 hour move.
Days . . not weeks, and Vince will be here and everything will be fine again.
Suzette Harris says
I’m glad to read your chatty news again ??
It must be so nice for this to be your last move. Also, that Vince will soon be there and you can commence your normal life (it’s almost like getting married–you’re beginning the rest of your life together in the last place you may live!)
Honestly, a meltdown is well-deserved. Although an exciting time for you to be moved near Chad and fam, 2020 was a terribly stressful year, you’ve been “separated” from Vince for a very long time, floods, power outages, covid in your elderly family you love so dear………..leaving Cat is the frosting on the heap.
Hugs to you and I hope you have a great day today, Wednesday! 🙂
Nancy H. says
It is perfectly natural to grief the loss of the TX home. Yes, you made the decision to sell and move but it is still a loss, a separation from all the dreams of that home. Then it has taken so long. We had the same sort of thing when we sold our home of 44 years and moved closer to our oldest daughter. We had never planned on leaving that house but it was time. Knowing that did not stop me from having a really good cry or two. It will get easier when Vince is home and you can move on with your new life together.
Your meltdown means you are a loving woman and have a lot going on. I think I could use a meltdown but for some reason it hasn’t happened. Stay strong, it will all sort itself out.
Judy Laquidara says
It’s weird that I’ve made it this long without being teary and now that it’s almost time for Vince to get here, I keep wanting to cry. I really feel bad for Vince – he still has a lot to do and I know he’s working so hard but yet he didn’t want me coming back to help. I know if I had gone, it wouldn’t have been good because the stuff that has to be moved, sold, tossed is all his and I would have had too much to say about it. I suppose it’s somewhat cathartic for him to be going through all his stuff and making the decisions without having to justify his decisions and without me asking the same questions he asks me .. Why are you keeping this? Are you ever going to use it again? I guess I feel like instead of just asking if he wanted me to come back, I probably should have just done it but . . I didn’t.
Dottie Newkirk says
When there’s finality, emotions surface…….When one has spent so many years/so much time in one place, doing so many things, even though one is ready to move on, those WONDERFUL memories “pop up”. We were at our last place 20 years, 14 years at the place before and I always felt sad that we were leaving, even though I knew things were going to be ok.
Diann Smith says
I think about Cat also. Hope the new owners hook up with him as much as he will allow. And I loved Speck. I know you will be glad when Vince is back and all things dealt with and put away. We moved ten years ago to KY from TN to live near our daughter/hubby who moved
for his work and especially the three grandchildren that were born there. We have never regretted that but I DO miss my TN friends.