With Vince being home all the time, one of the disadvantages of him being home to take care of everything, including me . . is that I feel like I’ve become totally irresponsible.
This trip to MO was kinda like torture! I felt frustrated trying to keep up with the credit card, cash, my purse, the keys to the car, the key to the apartment, the key to the hotel room. You don’t even want to know how many times I had to get a new key. It’s a good thing those people like me.
I used to take care of everything. I was a single mother for a while. When Vince and I got married, the first nine years, he was gone more than he was home . . often gone overseas and if something happened, I had to deal with it and get it fixed . . and I did. I feel fairly certain that if I ever had to be a responsible adult again, I could do it but heck, I don’t even want to be responsible.
One night in the hotel I woke up at 1 a.m. and remembered my iPad was in the car. I had left it laying in the passenger seat in plain sight. I’d hate for someone to steal it but I’d really hate for someone to break a car window to get it so I got dressed, went downstairs, asked the lady at the front desk if I wasn’t back in 1 minute, to open the door and yell for me. I ran to the car, got the iPad and ran back in. I told her “No one got me!” and she probably thought . . they’d bring you back!
Vince is always the one who makes the pass through the hotel room as we’re leaving to make sure we picked up everything. I don’t like doing that. I don’t even like being responsible for making sure everything is turned off in the apartment and the doors are locked. I had Nicole come over and go through it with me to make sure I had done everything.
I suppose the more I go to MO by myself, the more I’ll get used to being responsible . . maybe; or maybe I’ll start trying to be more responsible at home and not counting on Vince to do everything. Vince is the type who wants to take care of me and solve all my issues and I so appreciate that but I kinda fear, if I let myself think about it, that the longer I count on him to do everything, the harder it will be for me to be responsible so . . add that to my New Year’s plans . . be more responsible for myself.