This is a lesson that I need to remember and my guess is that a lot of us are the same.
As I get older, I realize new things kinda frighten me. There was a day when I would jump right in and tackle any project and never think “that’s too hard!” A new software program; a sewing pattern, a decorating project, etc.
Here are a few examples:
- Back when we had modems that we inserted into our computer, I wanted a faster modem and changed it out myself. Nowadays, I’m not sure I’d even tackle such a simple task.
- When I bought my first version of Electric Quilt software, it was DOS. I had never heard of DOS, didn’t have a clue how to use it but I wanted to learn and I did learn.
- I had never hung wall paper. This was way before the days we all had internet and Youtube. It was in 1989 to be exact. We bought a house in Texas and I wanted wall paper in the breakfast area. I went to the local decorating shop, ordered the wall paper and all the supplies they said I needed to hang it. The explained to me exactly how to do it. The ex and I were going to hang it . . some day. Being the night owl that I am, everyone was in bed except me and I thought . . I’m going to hang that wall paper. I got out the supplies and stayed up the entire night but I got all the wall paper hung. The house was for sale several years ago and the wall paper was still up so it’s nice to know it didn’t all fall off.
Bad picture from an old real estate listing but there’s the wall paper I hung many years ago. By the way, that house had the most wonderful kitchen!
I can’t believe after all these years, the tile counters are still there. It was an older house when we bought it but the tiles were smooth and even, unlike the slate tiles I had on my kitchen counter when we bought this house.
I keep putting things off and I don’t think of myself as being afraid to learn or afraid to tackle new things, but I think I am. I want to do some of those massive colorwork projects. I always tell others . . just do it! It’s only yarn but yet I keep buying patterns and have you seen me doing any massive colorwork projects? No! I did the colorwork reindeer for Addie’s hat but that was simple.
Seriously, when I finish these two test knits, I’m going to do something massive colorwork project. Well, maybe not totally massive but maybe I’ll do Heart Beet. That’s pretty and I’m excited about doing it. I guess my Leftovers Cowl is kinda massive but I’m not making a lot of progress on it.
When I first began feeling uneasy about driving over bridges, I should have nipped that feeling in the bud . . worked through it however I had to do it, and not let it develop into a full blown fear of bridges. I can remember driving across the bridge from Kentucky to Indiana and feeling like “I don’t like this” but I had to cross that bridge to get to the quilt shop so I did it but within a year or so, I was driving an hour out of my way to go over a bridge that was easier for me to cross, when I had crossed the first one for years without having an issue. I gave in to my fear and now I cannot drive over a big bridge.
I’m not going to let that happen again so I’m going to be more bold and if there’s something I want to do, I’m going to do it and not put it off.
I have a friend who will not get a colonoscopy or a mammogram because she’s afraid. I’m not sure if she’s afraid of the results or what. She’s my age so I guess if she’s made it this long, I shouldn’t hound her. Who likes the colonoscopy prep but it’s something we all need to do so I can do that.
I am not going to be controlled by fear . . even if it’s just wimpy fear. But, I’m still not going to drive across scary bridges! 🙂