There is no reason for me to be such a chicken but I am truly scared of everything. I’ve told all this on here before but Addie may not have been 5 years old yet and we were going somewhere one day and I don’t remember what we were talking about but I said “That would scare me!” I think she had done something really brave and I was telling her how brave she was.
Addie: Granny, you’re afraid of everything, aren’t you?
Me: I am. Did your daddy tell you that?
It’s so true. When I think back to October, 2020 when I came here by myself and stayed for the better part of six months by myself, I still can’t believe I did it. I remember those first few nights and thinking about calling Angie and Jeremy and asking them if I could stay at their house – just from dark to daylight, but I knew I had to learn to stay here. I was never comfortable. I’d stay awake til I couldn’t keep my eyes open, often going to bed after 3 a.m. I would have to take Rita out around midnight. Oh, just thinking about it makes me scared all over again.
I get it honest. I’m not sure my mom has ever spent the night alone. When I was in high school and we had a camp on a lake a couple of hours from home, if dad wanted to go and my sister or I had weekend activities, mom would have one of our boyfriends spend the night just to have a man in the house. Of course, that meant the boyfriend got a bed and my sister and I had to sleep together and that was way more dangerous than any intruder that might have wandered in.
Last night I was sitting in the sewing room and my phone said “Movement detected at sewing room door!” Movement? At that door 2′ from where I’m sitting?? I’m still on edge even though it’s been almost a month since the guy was back at our door. Vince was also downstairs and was watching a football game so I knew he could handle most anything that happened. But, in the seconds it took to grab my phone and see what was going on outside, I was nervous.
I couldn’t get the video to upload but here’s a couple of pictures of the “motion”.
In the photo below, he must have heard the click of the motion light because he stood there ea second, then the light came on and he ran!
I went to where Vince was and had my phone in my hand. He said “WHAT?” I said “Another visitor?” He said “NO!” thinking it was a human. He was relieved that it was an animal. I think it’s a fox. Vince wasn’t sure but he can enlarge it and stop it frame by frame and I don’t know how to do that.
You truly never know what’s lurking in the darkness. These days, every time someone says to me that they’ve never had anyone lurking around their house, I smile and wonder if they have cameras facing all directions. If not, you really do not know what goes on when you aren’t watching . . day or night. Having said that . . do we really want to know what goes on every minute of every day. This fox scared the daylights out of me. Had I not known he was out there . . I would have been just fine. I don’t know what the answer is any more.