I’m always looking for a symbol. Today we’ve pretty much decided we’re staying here for a while. Vince said “Are you sure you’re ok with this? Because . . I don’t want to build a new building and six months later you say you want to move back to MO.” That’s understandable. I made a list of reasons to stay and reasons to go and except for Chad, Nicole and Addie (which are really a HUGE item on that list), there’s no reason to go back. So far, there are 18 reasons to stay and 5 reasons to go. Two of the five reasons to go are things we could fix if we put a little more effort into it . . spiders and bugs and grass burrs.
We ran to town and when we came home, we saw this:
The rainbow was beautiful and Vince wouldn’t pull over so I could get a picture so excuse the dirty window and Vince’s face in the picture!
Then I thought of the rainbow Noah saw . . maybe I’m just looking for a sign but seeing the rainbow after we had decided to stay here . . that seemed like a good sign to me.
Then I remembered when we were leaving Missouri almost exactly six years ago (August 12, 2011).
Even though once I left Missouri that day I was stuck on the interstate for two hours due to an accident, and had spent days crying about leaving Chad behind, the rainbow told me things were going to be ok. Whether the rainbow is really a sign or just happenstance, it always makes me feel better, especially after just making a decision that has me questioning if we’re doing the right thing. I’m thankful for the signs, real or imagined, and the way the calm my fears and jittery nerves.
Rainbows have always been a sign for me that everything is going to be ok (guessing that’s because of God’s promise that I learned long ago in Sunday School). The rainbow was really comforting to me 6 years ago – the day my baby brother died. We were going to dinner with friends and we were all very sad when a double rainbow appeared. It was extremely comforting to me, reaffirming God’s promise that things would be ok.
I do feel for you (missing your son and his family)…..it is so very, very hard and I have been there/done that….the kids moved so many times and we cherished every minute we were able to spend with them visiting us, or us visiting them.
Rainbows are special. They tell us everything will be alright, not perfect but alright. Be Happy with your decision. 🙂
Linda in NE says
I’m thinking if you had about a half-dozen kids scattered around the country it wouldn’t be such a big decision to stay where you are because you wouldn’t be able to live near all of them. But, that ship sailed long ago didn’t it? And Chad is it. Have you thought that when Vince retires you might get a camper, stay in a campground near Chad’s and spend some extended time with them 2-3 times a year? You would have your own separate quarters, do your own thing when they are busy and spend time together when it works for all of you. A suggestion only.
So is it Ok if next week when you want to move I say ‘Remember the Rainbow’? But Snakes would be my reason to never live in Texas.
We have snakes here in Colorado: gardeners as well as rattlers . When we moved in here we had a pond and I insisted the hubs get rid of it when I saw snakes and they went under the house. I could just see them coming up the toilet (yep one too many horror movie watching with the teens !!). So far knock on wood, no snakes and we have the water ditch right behind our house. I am there with Judy on the snakes tho , but I can truly understand her need to be close to her child as I have 2 and we ended up in the middle of seeing them both 4 hours each way.
I think you are making the right decision to stay. Think of how much customization you have done to your property. You know that wherever you move will need changes to make it more suitable. Take advantage of what you have!!