Speck is now 15-1/2 years old. No matter how optimistic we are, he isn’t going to be with us that much longer. I’ve told myself that when the time comes to say goodbye to Speck, it would be easier since we now have Rita, but apparently I was very wrong.
Last night Speck got up from his pillow and kinda staggered and then stood still for the longest time. I said to Vince . . I don’t know what he’s doing. Speck is a bit confused lately. He seems to not be sure about his surroundings but after a while, it dawns on him where he is and who we are. But last night, he just seemed lost.
He went to bed and this morning, as always, I tapped him on the head to wake him up. As always, it was just a gentle pat on the head but he squealed like I had hurt him. Then he couldn’t walk. Just stood very still . . shaking. He finally made his way to the door, went outside and did his business, came in and ate but was moving very, very slowly. He was obviously hurting and I had some pain pills prescribed for him from a previous issue so I gave him one of those about 6 a.m. and that seemed to help a little.
I told Vince I would take him to the vet and I asked Vince . . if I have to make THAT decision, are you ok with not being there and Vince said yes, he couldn’t be there today and he didn’t want to see Speck go on in the condition he was in this morning. Before Vince left to to go work, he got down on the floor and said his goodbyes . . told Speck he had been a good dog .. and that’s when I started crying and couldn’t stop. So much for having Rita making this easier . .
I called the vet as soon as they opened and they told me to bring him in. I told the vet I had given him the pain meds before bringing Speck in. The vet felt like he is having pain in his neck and right shoulder. Speck tried to nip at him when he was gently moving Speck’s head. The vet said his heart is still very strong. He still eats and has no problems with other body functions but has some joint issues. I can relate to that!
The vet gave him a shot for pain and one for inflammation and sent us home with two different meds and Speck, though terribly confused from the pain pill I gave him and the shots the doctor gave him, seems to be resting comfortably. He normally sleeps in the living room during the day on two pillows that are stacked but I separated the pillows so he’s not jumping up or down.
For those of us who are pet lovers, they bring so much joy and fun to our lives but the thought of losing them, and it’s inevitable, is so darned painful.
I’m happy for more time with Speck . . so long as he isn’t in terrible pain so I’m anxious to see what the meds do for him.
Vince called to check on him and he was happy to hear the news. This may be the first time he didn’t ask me how much money I spent at the vet! 🙂